Thursday, November 01, 2012

I'm baaaack!

I cannot promise that I'll stay, but I have missed my blog as a vehicle for expression and creativity, and I've missed all of you out there who visit, and whom I visited online, so here I am. It has been a busy year -- aren't they all? for all of us? Just refinanced my house after four years of financial turmoil following my divorce, and it is like the weight of the world has finally been lifted. Aaaaah.

Imagining your best life,  the law of attraction, blah, blah, blah.
If you haven’t heard of the law of attraction, you’ve clearly been living under a very large rock. But if you’re now reading this, then you are probably not under a rock anymore since I am guessing it would be dark and difficult to read under a very large rock. Not to mention extremely uncomfortable.

Anyway, my biggest hurdle in recent years in visualizing and attracting my best life has been knowing what exactly my best life would be – seeing, specifically, in my mind’s eye, my perfect life. Most experts on the subject advise us to be specific, and that’s where I always get bogged down in too many choices and details, which would explain why I have felt like I was in a sort of holding pattern for a long time.
Just a few years ago, I knew exactly what I wanted. Or didn’t want any longer. And once I set my mind to the task of shedding what didn’t work anymore, it was gone. Almost that quickly. And this week was another example. So I know this stuff works, which is why I want so much to decide what I want -- but it' the deciding that always mucks me up. Sooo many choices!!! -- Of course, as we get older life weed out some choice for us - I am clearly never going to be a ballerina -- actually, youth probably wouldn't have helped me with that one either -- but still, there are soo many things I have yet to do in this life, and I need to pick something!!
So today I had a sort of epiphany. In trying to imagine my best life, I was thinking too big. I was trying to imagine the whole package at once -- home, partner, job, vacation, car, financial situation -- to name a few – but all at once, and I would get stuck on so many details that my perfect life would short circuit and I would be left with so many questions about what I wanted that I could not form a clear vision.

Even though I have big dreams, I am going to dream small! I will focus my energy on one small dream at a time...

Meanwhile,  I really do still have to get ready for work. It may not be my next dream job but it's a really good one that I am very grateful to have!!



Createology said...

Hello Dear and it is so good to read your post. You are not alone on the wondering of life...I am 64 and still do not know what I want to be when I grow up! Taking smaller steps is a good way of tackling the big journey. Avery looks beautiful and her smile lights up the entire photo. Blessings to you my friend...

Peggy Beck said...

Kerri it is so good to see you back. Who needs to be a ballerina when you can line dance?!!! I can relate to the overwhelming thoughts that keep so many options in our head that we can't see clearly. I like and think your new approach to keep it small will work well for you. Keep on dancing and trucking!!!