Monday, April 19, 2010

The voices in my head...


Those who know me well know that I can talk alot. A LOT. A really, really lot. But if you could hear the inner dialogue, the one in my head that virtually never shuts up, you'd wonder how I could ever have a coherent thought or idea. And you'd no doubt be grateful that for all that I talk about, there is so much that I don't share. Because, in fact, a lot of it is imaginary.

Imaginary conversations, imaginary arguments, little scenarios that I run through my mind when things are bothering me but I have yet to act on them. Sometimes I am trying certain ideas on for size, and seeing what might or might not work. And sometimes this is good, but often, I think it's just a very big waste of mental energy on what-ifs. On problems that don't even really exist, but that I make up in my overactive imagination. I don't think I am alone in this. Or maybe I am. I am told that meditation helps, but it may come as no surprise that I am not very good at meditation BECAUSE I CAN'T SHUT MY MIND UP!!

For me, art is my best form of meditation. It anchors me in the here and now. It quiets my overactive mind. Instead of mulling over the I should haves and the I wish I hadn'ts and the what ifs, I engage my eyes and hands and mind in a form of creation. Art is real. It is now.

5 comments:

La Dolce Vita said...

oh I agree it calms me down, and it is a form of meditation!

Marilyn Rock said...

Art rules Kerri. I, for one, am an "artaholic" for which I do not want a 12-step program to cure the addiction. Art, for me, is truly therapy; always has been and I can turn to it when I'm happy, sad, grumpy, whatever. My mind doesn't shut off really, either, but when I'm creating; art transcends me to a much calmer place - a former meditative state I guess. Love your post! The graphic is a riot! Love ya - M

fran p. said...

Inner dialog is the best - no one but you will win the argument!!! My most dramatic conversations, whether they are telling someone off, giving praise or just grumbling are all in my head! The what if's take the most room in my "head space. I can really relate to this post, Kerri, more than you know!!! I had imaginary "friends" as long as I can remember - and even imaginary lives!!! I never have a truly "good nights sleep" because my imagination keeps me busy all night long – I wake up exhausted. Great post - made me really smile....also loved your flip video...I think you need Princess or Little Kitty Bandages, though!

Createology said...

Oh how well you have described me. I talk...way too much and way too loud! My mind dwells on so much that it never turns off and never silent. I love being creative as it is so relaxing and fulfilling. I am...Happy Creating!
I love your new photo. Your hair is really grown out and you look wonderful. Such an infectious smile!!!

Peggy Beck said...

Oh Kerri, this is so fun. I love this cartoon. It made me smile from ear to ear. And, you are definately not alone. It seems I do the same thing. Imagination does cause us to see things that are not really there, but the possibilities are endless and so we create. Great post. Fun.