More digital collage

Sometimes, or more accurately, most of the time, I have an urge to journal, to spill out my fears and frustrations and problems on paper, but at the same time I am afraid of revealing too much. I find it awkward and painful to read my own admissions of struggle or failure. So I find myself hiding the words somewhat by incorporating them into an art journal page, or in this case, a digital collage. 

More digital collage fun...

While impatiently waiting to be able to get to work yesterday, I did a little photoshop play. The primitive nature of the drawings is the result of sketching with a mouse...

Life Lessons - control

There's nothing like two fucking feet of snow at your doorstep (and everywhere else you look) to remind you that any feeling of control you've ever had is an illusion.

I love the illusion of control. I like choosing how I will spend my days, even within the confines of my reality, which of course, includes a job, walking a dog and a lot of other obligations. Still, I choose to work (so that I can eat), and I choose to walk my dog (so that he doesn't poop in the house). I like feeling as though I have choices, that I control the shape of my days.

But right now, mother nature is in control. And she is one miserable, sadistic bitch.

And I am fairly certain that I have written this before. Possibly this entire post, but certainly the theme of control. And my lack of growth in dealing with it.

And now that I am done ranting, I will leave you with image. I think it's called the sun. I am not sure. It's been so long since I've seen it that I barely remember.