Thursday, July 08, 2010

words.


Words usually come easily to me. These days, I find myself choking on them. I suspect it’s because the thoughts and feelings I need to express are not pleasant, and I don’t want to put them on paper and make them real. Own them. Admit to them. I am an expert at pushing it all down and putting on a happy face, but if you don’t own the bad stuff along with the good, it comes up with a vengeance, like a projectile vomit of bad words and feelings that leave a horrid taste in the mouth and a feeling like a boulder pressing on my chest.
Wow. WTF? Did I just say that?
Someone made a comment over the weekend that really pissed me off.I am not sure if it was intentional and mean, or just stupid and thoughtless. Either way, I should have said something at the time, but the circumstances were such that I chose to put it off for too long. And now it's festering inside me. If I say something now, it seems like way too little too late. So instead, I take it out on canvas.

Drowning.
8 x 8 mixed media & collage on canvas

This is one of two pieces that will be in the next Art de Cure exhibit from July 19-Oct 15. The theme is "Make a Splash."

8 comments:

Marilyn Rock said...

Kerri; I've always said that art is a way of expressing our feelings and sometimes a more satisfying way of getting rid of some bad thoughts or frustrations. I hate the thought of someone making you feel, this way; I'd like a piece of 'em, too! :)

But; your feelings certainly came out in a wonderful way on this canvas - love the colors and textures; and the way you included those numbers! It's a lovely piece for the show!

xxoo Marilyn

ArtPropelled said...

Art is the best way to vent and if you are going to produce glorious work like this you should vent more often.

Createology said...

Hi Kerri:
This post is hopefully very cathartic for you and your art is such a perfect expression of your feelings and words. I love your depth of colors in this piece. It should be a huge success in your art exhibit. Keep creating...
P.S. I am so sorry that someone was rude and mean to you.

Anonymous said...

OK - who am I siccing the poodles on? Now, no, don't laugh - Penny is a real KILLER - and she does it in a very cute way. Sorta like the killer Rabbit in Monte Python!

XOXO Debbie (for some reason your account doesn't let me leave comments on your blog as me ;)

mary devenpeck said...

This person is obviously jealous of your talent! Just keep creating!

fran p. said...

OK Kerri, I know someone...goes by the name "Vinnie the Enforcer"... you know the rest.

In your distress you have created a marvelous piece....love the numbers....

Annette Holleger said...

Uh oh, I saw you that weekend. It wasn't me was it? I'm sorry someone was rude to you. I'm with Mary. That person's just jealous.

I'm also sorry you're struggling to speak words but your feelings made it to a beautiful canvas. Adventures in art and life are so often mixed.

Keep the faith.

Peggy Beck said...

I hope that person was not a "friend". I'm sure isn't anymore if it was and you haven't lost a thing if that is the case. I can't imagine it. I love the piece you did and don't see one streak of "anger or piss" in it. Wonderful expression.